all this time I’ve prayed asking for happiness to Allah. I pray that Allah always gives happiness to my beloved people. I hope i can bring happiness for people around me. And i ask for my own happiness in this world and in the life after death.
coz i believe no matter how hard life could be it would be fine if we are happy enough to go through it.

and now I am questioning my own prayers. Are those prayers good enough?
I did realize that there are balances in every part of life in this world.
Goodness stands beside badness. There is no love without hatred. The day will be replaced by night. There is tear beside the laughter. And happiness wouldn’t be special without sadness and pain. Those are perfection.

I always think that a perfection that suits me is a condition that runs as well as I want, as I’ve planned. Failure is not perfect, hurt is not perfect, nor is the loss. I often choose to avoid the pain, the loss, the sadness. I tried to deny any uncomfortable feelings that I might feel.

Now I am rethinking again.
Is it too shameful to feel sad?
Is it that bad to be hurt?
Is it that awful to lose something precious?

What I learn is everything happens for a reason. The sun will always shine again after a storm. We can find another better-happy world after all the tears that u have shed. All we should do is to be sincere in everything we do. I believe Allah will always give the best that suit each one of us. So enjoy the pain, enjoy the loss, enjoy the failure, coz Allah will give u something more precious, something more valuable and the most important thing is something to be learnt.

you may hate a thing although it is good for you, and love a thing although it is bad for you. Allah knows, but you do not know (al baqarah : 216)

(ps. that quran’s clause reminds me of my debate with my Indian friend bout whats good for us. Hihi)

....and lived happily ever after, but THE POINT IS THEY LIVED