happiness in perfection
sweet29november
all this time I’ve prayed asking for happiness to Allah. I pray that Allah always gives happiness to my beloved people. I hope i can bring happiness for people around me. And i ask for my own happiness in this world and in the life after death.
coz i believe no matter how hard life could be it would be fine if we are happy enough to go through it.

and now I am questioning my own prayers. Are those prayers good enough?
I did realize that there are balances in every part of life in this world.
Goodness stands beside badness. There is no love without hatred. The day will be replaced by night. There is tear beside the laughter. And happiness wouldn’t be special without sadness and pain. Those are perfection.

I always think that a perfection that suits me is a condition that runs as well as I want, as I’ve planned. Failure is not perfect, hurt is not perfect, nor is the loss. I often choose to avoid the pain, the loss, the sadness. I tried to deny any uncomfortable feelings that I might feel.

Now I am rethinking again.
Is it too shameful to feel sad?
Is it that bad to be hurt?
Is it that awful to lose something precious?

What I learn is everything happens for a reason. The sun will always shine again after a storm. We can find another better-happy world after all the tears that u have shed. All we should do is to be sincere in everything we do. I believe Allah will always give the best that suit each one of us. So enjoy the pain, enjoy the loss, enjoy the failure, coz Allah will give u something more precious, something more valuable and the most important thing is something to be learnt.

you may hate a thing although it is good for you, and love a thing although it is bad for you. Allah knows, but you do not know (al baqarah : 216)

(ps. that quran’s clause reminds me of my debate with my Indian friend bout whats good for us. Hihi)

....and lived happily ever after, but THE POINT IS THEY LIVED
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my life is a roller coaster
sweet29november
........menghapus jejak maya.........

cerita sebenarnya adalah betapa senangnya aku seminggu yang lalu, dan betapa terpuruknya aku dalam kesedihan minggu ini

Feb, 16 2009
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kacamata dalam melihat masalah
sweet29november

burn after reading, lucu, aneh, seru. it is a simple matter that becomes complicated.

sebenarnya konflik utama dalam cerita ini sangat sederhana. Gara-gara sebuah disc yang berisi tulisan mantan anggota intelijen CIA yang diberhentikan. CD ini ditemukan dan disalahgunakan oleh orang-orang yang tidah tahu banyak tentang informasi dalam CD tersebut. Tanpa berbekal pengetahuan yang cukup, orang2 tersebut menyalahgunakan CD tersebut untuk mendapatkan uang. CD yang sebenarnya berisi mengenai memoir mantan anggota CIA yang akan dijadikan buku tersebut menjadi seolah2 penting. Karena sang penemu CD tidak berhasil memeras pemilik CD, maka mereka berniat menjualnya ke kedutaan Rusia. Masalah semakin pelik karena sang penemu CD merasa bisa mendapatkan info lebih dengan memasuki rumah mantan CIA. Memasuki rumah mantan CIA tersebut malah membuatnya kehilangan nyawa, karena kekagetan selinguhan istri mantan CIA yang secara reflek menembaknya yang ketahuan menyusup ke dalam rumah mantan anggota CIA. Sebelumnya memang selingkuhan istri mantan CIA ini merasa telah dibuntuti seseorang. selingkuhan istri mantan CIA tersebut beranggapan bahwa ia sedang dibuntuti oleh agen intelijen (padahal ia sedang dibuntuti oleh detektif perceraian yang disewa istrinya yang bernat bercerai dengannya).

film ini memberiku pelajaran berharga untuk tidak berlebihan dalam memikirkan sesuatu karena mungkin saja situasi yang terjadi sebenarnya tidak serumit itu dan tidak sepelik itu. Masalah terlihat menjadi pelik karena "kacamata" orang yang melihat situasi tersebut.
Sekali lagi aku merasa telah diberi petunjuk oleh Allah, bahkan tanpa kuminta dengan layak. Insiprasi yang timbul karena menonton film ini tentulah berasal hanya dari-Nya.
Aku akan berusaha memilih "kacamata" yang paling baik dalam memandang situasi yang terjadi dalam hidupku. Aku akan belajar memandang masalah dengan lebih sederhana dan tidak berlebih-lebihan.

kacamataku saat ini adalah, marilah menunggu dan menanti kepastian yang lebih jelas, lalu barulah aku dapat memikirkan langkah selanjutnya. jangan terlalu jauh dulu dalam mengembangkan skenario yang belum tentu terjadi ah!

02 Feb 2009
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shocking news
sweet29november
hhh...what a shocking news

it started from the curiosity about the minor trace. so i asked a friend of mine who has access to look for an information bout the 'minor trace'.
so what did i get?what did i know?
well i got the old trace. i got where the trace has left itself a long long ago.
some may say it was a bad trace since the other traces are beautiful.
all i asked is a recent updates, but what i got is a past trace (which is more shocking to know it)

some might feel to leave the trace, choose not following the same footprints, since the ugly print has been seen.
i have a doubt thinking too.
what should i do? i have never been in this kind of situation, nor my friends have.
i think to leave all hopes, restart from the begining again.
but all i feel is sadness. i did think to leave the trace, but it is because another reason. it is not the same reason what ordinary people think.
i did think to leave the trace because i dont have any self confident to follow the trace.
i feel that i am not suitable to walk beside the trace. i did think that what it needs is a better person, better than myself.
haha...... the friend of mind criticize me. She said that i was like a girl who begs the king to choose her to become one of his concubine...HHHH

so tell me am i crazy or not?
it seems that all hopes have developed into mount of expectations, without knowing the real sight from outside the box.

01 Feb 2009

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