Ya Allah….it happens again…to me

the remnants have been broken again………..

is this the cause why i felt so dim recently??the intuition might have warned me before…hix…so dim. the signs appeared. but i didnt notice

actually i ve felt better this day, but it changed immediately when i saw the trace he left in virtual world. world without adamant form. could his small pieces of footprint represent his presence in that world?when i said small…it was really small, coz it seemed that he tried to erase the trace. for what reason? he himself could tell. i refuse to feel

the loss. when only small traces that left, i couldnt follow the trace.

someone has said that every “HE” has the right to spread the net to catch fishes. but “HE” can only pick one.

so here i am, back into the darkness. still waiting someone to shed the light.

i dont suppose to feel crumble. coz i am just back to the state i was.

Ya Allah, help to thank what i ve been through. Ya Allah, i prefer to want what i have than to have what i want. so help me God.

23 Jan 2009